Monday, November 15, 2004
Open me up and fill me with doubt
Open me up
fill me with doubt
close the lid
and send me on my way
When a crack appears
and it all leaks out
patch and seal it up
and refill
send me on my way again
so full the cap can't fit
forced to face life
filled with your words
Well, I was having a good week up until Saturday when I did my performance appraisal for work, which determines my raise. Due to some bad communication skills by management they didn't tell my supervisor about an objective that I could have easily met, therefore causing me to have a really low to almost no raise. I flipped my lid, They have a page for our comments and I wrote a comment I tell you! The full page. I talked about how greedy the company was for tuning a blind eye towards anything that would benefit them and not the employees.
I also said the following "In closing I have a bad taste in my mouth Puuuttttt! Puuutttt! What is it? It's the taste of bad managment and the rot that's eating away it's image to show what it really is." I wonder if I'll get fired? I was feeling really good about myself and that I stood up for myself and told them my real opinion. I asked my supervisor if it was ok and if she thought I would get in trouble and she said "No" so that's good.
But what do I do? I go home and tell my parents, who don't understand and think I have one of the best jobs in the world, even though I tell them I don't, and everyone they meet from work that I know they ask them how they feel and they all have the same opinion. But they can't imagine it being bad. Hello! It's good pay and benefits for a reason! So they can actually keep people there and have a low "turn around" They kept saying how they were worried and felt I was going to get fired, and thought I did it without thinking because I have insurance that's paying for my tooth to be fixed and if I get fired then that's out the door. I told them to relax and that I know what I was/am doing, but they don't believe me. And once again filled my mind with doubt
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